Tomorrow is one week since we learned of Mathew’s latest scans.

With each person we tell the news gets harder to bear. It becomes more real every time I hear it. The future presses on us with time remaining growing shorter each day.

Life gets shorter for each of us with every passing day but it doesn’t seem as imminent as Mathew’s end date.

I got a ruler out today and looked at 1.4 cm. It’s big…way too big for just a few months’ growth. Put that one together with the other ones growing in the left lung and you realize the cancer is starting to cover too much space.

It hit me like a wall of bricks that he won’t be here too much longer to share my day with. To watch a movie with or hang out…

Oh boy. It’s harder than you can ever imagine.

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